It took me a long time to be able to really "dig" into the scriptures. I had read the
Book of Mormon many times, but each time I read it, I didn't really feel like I got much out of it. It just depressed me when people said what wonderful things come from reading the scriptures. But because I sort of made a pact with myself to always at least try to follow the gospel of Jesus Christ, I'd keep trying, rolling my eyes a bit each time I flipped the pages back to the beginning of the book. It wasn't until sometime in the summer that I really started loving the scriptures, the
Ensign, and really anything gospel-related I could read, listen to, or, most importantly, think about.
I think the reason I learned how to "dig" into the scriptures was that I suddenly had an urgent reason to do so. Because of some major decisions that climaxed this summer, the need to think about God exploded in my mind. I had always wanted to grow closer to God, but at that point, thinking about God and working to learn about the gospel became an absolute necessity if I wanted to live a life guided by the Spirit. I had to work to know how to listen to the Spirit, and I knew that even if I had no firm resolve for anything else (people who know me will get that), I had a firm resolve for this: I wanted to live a life guided by the Spirit. So, I tried to base all my decisions off of the Spirit and to learn who exactly God is, what the gospel is and why it is so important, and what I should believe in. After one of the more painful decisions, I was fiery and willing to throw away anything I believed in just to make sure what I believed in was true. I had questions, and I wanted to see if they could be answered. (And I totally found that there are so many places to go!) I wanted to know. That's when I started to see that I didn't know everything there is to know in the scriptures, that there are so many answers to my questions.
It was so amazing! It really is kind of funny how much it surprised me.
There are so many things to learn from the scriptures, prophets,
apostles, and leaders in the church! This may be kind of arrogant or something, but when I saw how much there is to
learn, it seriously shocked me and made me so unbelievably happy.
So I guess what I learned from this experience is that in order to have "the scriptures opened to my heart," I have to have the desire to learn something. I also think it is important to approach it prayerfully with an openhearted desire to know God and a willingness to throw away any preconceived notions. Yep! That's my experience. I'm still trying to figure it out.